sunday morning dysphoria

another day

another sleepless night

wriggling beneath my sheets

tossing and turning

tears stain my pillows

I taste salt on my lips

and flash back to vivid nightmares

of shadows lurking in my mind

the darkness engulfing me subsides

and light pours through my curtains

alone again

alone always

time slips away

but I remain the same

I feel empty and hollow

just like the hole in my chest